2014 was really not the best year for our small Paff household. Don’t get me wrong, we had great times, but the bulk of the year was not extraordinary. So I’m ready to watch 2014 take a hike while I welcome 2015 in. We were only one week into 2014 when we learned Justin was no longer in remission, so the first half of our year was filled with pushing through another round of treatment which brings on it’s own slew of issues and anxiety. Thankfully, he is once again in remission and that anxiety can lay dorment while we piece our lives back together and move forward. I am so thankful for the strength my husband has and the positive attitude he exudes through all of this adversity and that keeps me going. On a more personal front, as I reflect back on what the day-to-day looked like for 2014 I realize that I spent way too much time needlessly stressed and angry about things that are out of my control. For those of you that know me, you are most likely aware that I am a complete control-freak. I need things to make sense, be logical and purposeful so when things are out of my control I obsess or get angry that I can’t do anything about it. This became glaringly clear this year in my career. I’ve gone through hills and valleys in this new role as the Program Manager, edging on miserable and bordering on empowered and excited, usually all within the same week. A lot of the manic states stem from my tendency to put far too much pressure on myself. I’m determined to not let 2015 end in the same way – where I am sitting on my couch reflecting on the year I had and can only remember the days I blow through our door and let my day explode all over my husband, my family or even my cats. I’m going to take 2015 as it comes and concentrate on enjoying myself, laughing and learning. The rest will fall into place.
I’m not big on resolutions, but here are some of the things I am looking forward to in 2015! Enjoy, happy 2015!