I have spent the last ninety days not writing on this blog. Not knowing what to say, how to say it or what the greater point would be if I managed to find the words. I use writing as a creative outlet and a way to connect my daily life with the rest of the world. It’s important to me. That importance makes it hard for me to use this platform as a voice for my frustration with people, situations, and current circumstances. So, when I seem to be going through a more difficult or frustrating time, I back off the blog and resort to writing in a notebook for myself. Some things just don’t need to be shared with the world.
As cliche as it is, I decided to leave the negative aspects of the last six months behind and start fresh when 2016 arrived. Even after making this decision, I still hadn’t found my long-lost motivation to be energetic, positive, creative or healthy. I felt like I needed some big transformation and was feeling the pressure to have it all figured out by January 1st, which, let’s face it, is not realistic at all. While on my two week break over the holiday, I stumbled across this quote on Instagram from @IamHerTribe. It lit the spark of motivation within me and made me realize that being purposeful and strategic with how I move forward toward positivity is more important than creating change on day one.
“Be easy on yourself. Don’t rush to write down half-hearted resolutions and force accelerated change on your life, all in effort to make the January 1st mark. Now is the time for reflection. For pausing. For learning. For letting go and transcending. What is heavy? What is light? What would you like to see shift? Create intention, a positive calling, your own personal spark of magic that will manifest itself. All rooted in loving self, then back it all with your action.” #iamhertribe
It’s January 4th, my first day working on a better year. It wasn’t the easiest, but it felt good to have the motivation to move forward, for myself and for those closest to me.
The past is over, I can only reflect on what I’ve learned and move toward the version of myself that I want to portray. Here’s to a purposeful and reflective 2016!